What To Do?

So, I'm going to be honest. I have no idea what to do with my blog anymore.  Ever since I came out, I don't really feel like I have much to write here.  This was my secret place where I could anonymously express my true feelings and hopes and desires and wishes and goals and fears and whatnot.  But now, I feel like I have nothing substantial to put here.  I've actually always hated writing for the sake of writing.  I've never kept a journal.  I've never written a story just for the heck of it.  It's just not my thing.  So, I'm trying to find excuses to keep this blog going.  Maybe I'll continue posting fun stuff like my celebrity crushes posts or fun videos.  Who knows?

Anyway, I am going to try to do what I did a while back.  I'm going to ask for your feedback.  What do you want to know about me?  What would you like me to write about?  Please, ask away.

In the meantime, YouTube videos!

Pretty much sums up how I feel sometimes:


I was laughing so hard that I couldn't breathe:


Such a gorgeous and touching song:


IMHO, one of the most beautiful songs ever written:

Celebrity Crushes....The Men!

As promised, here is my edition of Celebrity Crushes...The Men!

Neil Patrick Harris

- For reasons why I love NPH, please refer to this post. I rest my case.

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

- I still remember him from his early days on 3rd Rock from the Sun or 10 Things I Hate About You. But it wasn't until recently (500 Days of Summer, Inception) that he started showing up on my hot-guy radar.

Chris Colfer

- Love him. Love everything about him. Thinking about being him for Halloween.

Jake Shears

- Lead singer for Scissor Sisters. I love this group and can watch him sing all day.

Rob Lowe

- I just started watching The West Wing, and I love his character, Sam.  As my brother would say, "He's a stud" (which is basically his way of calling another man "hot" without sounding gay).

Matthew Mitcham

- I have a thing for swimmers/divers. I could watch him dive all day long. 

Mostly because he'd be wearing a speedo the whole time.

Nicholas Hoult

- If you haven't seen A Single Man, it's a must-see. 

And not just for this eye-candy (although it doesn't hurt):

Anderson Cooper

- I've always had a thing for this silver fox.

Jesse Tyler Ferguson

- Mitch is funny, awkward, nerdy, controlling, a perfectionist, and gay. 

Basically everything I am. Except for the funny part.

Peter O'Toole

- Those eyes, those amazing blue eyes. Enough said.

Sterling Malory Archer

- He's an idiot and a womanizer. But oh, so sexy 

(especially in those tight turtlenecks). 

*This one was for you, Jeremy.*

He's Got A Huge....Talent!

Holy....

....oh my....

....just....

.....wow. So hot. Excuse me while I go take a cold shower....



(50 bonus points to who ever can name the reference of my post title).

Celebrity Crushes....The Women!

For no other reason than because I am bored, I have decided to compile a list of my celebrity crushes.  So, first off are the women of the entertainment industry that I am in love with (not that I'd ever sleep with them, 'cause that's icky).  These are the actors, singers, and entertainers that I just love to watch, no matter what.  So, here (in no particular order) are my female celebrity crushes (stay tuned for the Male edition of this post):

Mary-Louise Parker

- I loved her in Angels in America, and Fried Green Tomatoes is one of my favorite movies. My lesbian girlfriend told me she's a bitch, to which I replied: "So?"

Julianne Moore

- Julianne Moore can do no wrong in my book. She is absolutely stunning 

(see A Single Man or Far From Heaven for proof), and is an outstanding actress.

Jennifer Nettles

- Lead singer for the country duo Sugarland. 

There is something about her voice that really turns me on.

Robin Wright

- I have loved Robin Wright since I first saw her in The Princess Bride, and I continue to adore her. Not to mention that Forrest Gump is one of my favorite movies.

Debra Messing

- Grace Adler, need I say more?

Jennifer Garner

- Alias is still one of my all-time favorite television shows.  And she can kick ass!

Emma Stone

- Can she get any prettier?  And funnier?  

She was hilarious in Easy A and I am super excited for The Help.

Emma Watson

- Once she got over the awkward early adolescent years (around the time HP 4 came out), she really blossomed.  I love the ads she did for Burberry.

Rachel Maddow

- What's hotter than a liberal, lesbian political pundit? I love watching her show.

Adele

- I would make love to her voice. End of story.

Sofia Vergara

- The definition of "vol-ump-tuous." Not to mention that she's incredibly funny. (God, I swear Googling "Sofia Vergara" is like straight-up Googling "Boobs.")

Cate Blanchett

- I know my lesbian girlfriend hates her, but I love Cate. 

(The Aviator, Benjamin Button, Elizabeth, The Lord of the Rings, Babel, I could keep going....)

Not Just For Gays...

So, the Tony awards were last night, and surprise! They aren't just for gays anymore:



Plus, one f**king amazing number by Andrew Rannells from 'The Book of Mormon.' (This is one of my favorite songs from the show):



The hotness factor doubled when this amazing thing happened:



And seriously, NPH is my favorite. Just watch this closing rap, and bask in his awesomeness:



I love the Tony's, but they manage to show me exactly why I wish I lived in New York.

Pride 2011

Pride was basically awesome. I ended up marching in the parade, which was a blast and such a unique and wonderful opportunity.  And the weather couldn't have been nicer.  I've got a wicked sunburn to prove it.

I think Pride is such a great event.  And the fact that it keeps getting bigger is such a testament to how far Utah has come (and will continue to go).  Two years ago, I was completely unaware that Utah even had a Pride festival.  I was sure that kind of lewd behavior and debauchery was reserved for the "evil" cities, like San Francisco, Seattle and New York.  Fast forward two short years, and here I am, letting my gay flag fly proudly through the streets of downtown Salt Lake City!  My, how two years can completely change a person.

Of course I took tons of pictures.  Here are a few.  As many of my friends are still students at that Socialist Work Camp known as BYU, I am not posting any personal pictures.

The Utah Pride 2011 Grand Marshal, Roseanne Barr (who I got to meet at the Grand Marshal Reception on Friday night)!

What Pride Parade is complete without a few rainbow flags...

...and Drag Queens!

(I know you can't see her, but the bottom pic is Stacey Layne Matthews, from RuPaul's Drag Race!)

Green with Envy?

I saw the new Pirates movie this weekend, and I totally geeked out over this trailer:



I'm so excited! I am a Muppets geek.

The trailer threw me for a loop at first.  I knew a long time ago that Jason Segel and Amy Adams were doing the new Muppet movie together, so when I saw them in this trailer, I thought Sweet! The Muppets movie! But when the preview started like a romantic movie, I was totally thrown off, and thought that maybe it wasn't the Muppets.  But, soon enough, enter Kermit and Miss Piggy! I threw my fist in the air and yelled YES! for the whole theater to hear. (Apparently this is Disney's strategy for their marketing campaign, as the trailer is billed as Green with Envy, and does not hint at all to being a Muppet movie).

So, yes, I do geek out. In a theater filled with hundreds of people. Be warned.

I'm done!

I'm done! I am officially done!

I have finally graduated from BYU.  I recieved my Bachelor's of Science in Geography, with an emphasis in Travel and Tourism Studies.

Does this mean I have to change my blog name now?

Would You Believe?

If they were not who you were taught that they would be, would you still believe? #Judas

Peeved

I'm really annoyed right now at (surprise!) BYU.

There was supposed to be a "discussion" on gay marriage on campus this morning. The BYU Democrats (yes, they do exist) and BYU Republicans were going to "discuss" gay marriage (because obviously there is no room for debate on the issue, because a bunch of old, cranky, white men say so). I was excited to attend because this is the first time anything like this has happened here. Two of my friends were even going to be on the panel as pro-gay marriage advocates.

But, of course, in typical BYU fashion, the whole thing has been caught up in bureaucratic red tape.

First, they announce that the event has been "postponed until further notice." This can only mean that BYU won't allow the event to take place in its current form on campus.

Then, on the Facebook event page, they have since changed the name from "Panel Discussion: Homosexuality & Gay Marriage" to the vague and broad "Panel Discussion: Contemporary Issues." This was clearly done in order to appease BYU (cause here, homosexuality and gay marriage are like naughty, four-letter words).

Finally, the group announces that, in order to attend, you MUST be a member of either BYU Democrats or BYU Republicans. I don't know why this annoyed me so much. Maybe because it excludes me from attending, as I am not a member of either group.

This is why BYU annoys me so much. They don't allow anything to happen on campus, unless it fits within their model of a "perfect" school. This happens every year during BYUSA elections. The candidates' platforms have to be approved in advance by the administration. Then, during their tenure, they only do what the administration tells them to do. Sounds a bit autocratic, huh? That's BYU for you.

Heaven forbid that people have different views on life. In my opinion, there is no good argument against gay marriage. Most arguments that I've heard are from a religious standpoint. "It's against God's word." "The Bible condemns it." "Modern revelation blah blah blah." These arguments are no good. When you use these arguments, you are forcing your own religious views on other people, who probably do not believe the way you do. The LDS faith promotes the ability of ALL people to "worship how, where, or what they may" (Articles of Faith, v.11). When you tell someone that they cannot do something based on a religious tenet, you are forcing your own religious views on them, thereby removing their own ability to choose how to live their life.

Anyway, I'll get off my soapbox now.

April Fool's!

In honor of April Fool's Day, I give you:

Justin Beanber!!

Why I Love Harry Potter

I just realized something.  I have never declared my undying love for Harry Potter on my blog.  I can't believe I haven't done it yet.  Harry Potter may just be my favorite books of all time (definitely up there with the likes of To Kill a Mockingbird, The Lord of the Rings, The Pillars of the Earth, The Princess Bride, The Help and Jurassic Park).

I started reading Harry Potter way back when, before it was even popular.  I remember by lovely aunt recommending Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone to me because "I reminded her of Harry."  Yes, I was a scrawny little boy with huge glasses.  All I remember was that I couldn't get enough of it.  I quickly ate up the second book, but soon realized that I would have to wait for the third to get published.  Grrrr!!!! It still makes me mad at how long I had to wait between EACH AND EVERY book!  I would get the newest one, put my face into the pages and not stop till I was finished.  Then, after I was done and ready for more, would the fact that I would have to wait another year-and-a-half to two years for the next one.

J.K. Rowling certainly knows how to weave an intricate story with complex characters, enough to engage a young reader with such fervor.  Harry Potter certainly sparked my interest in reading.  Now, I just love picking up a book and devouring its pages.  All thanks to a young, scrawny wizard who taught a young, scrawny Muggle that it's not only cool to read, but an amazing and fun experience as well.

And yes, to this day, I still await my acceptance letter to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

(This post was inspired by my new friend, who blogs at www.dumbledoresdilemma.tumblr.com. Check it out.)

Just for Fun: Kissing

For cute!

And for the record, Armageddon IS a fantastic movie!

Get It Right

I am so excited for Glee to finally do original songs next week!  This one, called Get It Right, is great, and it is quite apropos to how I am feeling right now.  Take a listen:



- "What can you do when your good isn't good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down?"

- "I can't go back and undo this. I just have to stay and face my mistakes."

- "How many times will it take for me to get it right?"

- "Yeah, I'll send out a wish. Yeah, I'll send up a prayer. And finally, someone will see how much I care!"

Modern Family + Oscars, Part Deux

Sorry about not posting yesterday about the Oscars.  It's been a pretty busy and stressful couple of days.  It was a pretty boring and predictable night anyway, so I'm not sure there's much to say.

Anyway, here's Part Deux of the Modern Family Oscar's Promo that aired during Sunday's telecast:

Oscar Predictions 2011

Okay peeps. Here it is. My predictions for the major categories this year.  I do have to say that this year was INFINITELY more difficult to predict than last year.

Stay tuned tomorrow for my rundown of the fashion on the red carpet, the show, and all the surprises that are likely in store for us tomorrow evening.

Best Picture
The heartfelt, uplifting period piece vs. the contemporary cultural zeitgeist.  It's The King's Speech vs. The Social Network.  I loved both of these films (along with all the other nominated films this year - all are deserving movies).  Early on, it seemed like this was The Social Network's to lose.  But more recently, it seems that The King's Speech has made a late breakaway from the pack.  Personally, I would love to see The Social Network take it, but perhaps a movie with such an unlikeable protagonist won't sit well with the Academy voters.  Therefore, I predict that The King's Speech will have the last triumph.

Best Director
I am still a little miffed at the exclusion of Christopher Nolan from this category.  But the Academy's precious darlings, the Coen brothers, just had to be included, almost out of obligation.  Don't get me wrong, I thought True Grit was an excellent movie. I just don't think the Coen brothers deserve to be in this category.  But I digress. Even if Nolan was up for this award, my prediction would be that David Fincher (The Social Network) still wins.

Best Actor in a Leading Role
It's Colin Firth vs. Jeff Bridges again.  But, unlike last year, Firth will not be robbed of his well-deserved Oscar!  Colin Firth will definitely win this one.

Best Actress in a Leading Role
Oh how I would LOVE for Annette Bening to win this one.  I loved The Kids Are All Right, and thought Bening was a godsend.  She has been nominated several times before, but has never taken home the gold.  This year, unfortunately, I think she will go home empty handed yet again.  The Oscar instead will go to the Natalie Portman for her brilliant, dark and twisted role in Black Swan.

Best Actor in a Supporting Role
My bet is on Christian Bale.  His intense method acting and dedication to every role will resonate with the Academy.  He slimmed down to play a boxer-turned-crack-addict, only to completely lose himself in the role.  This is the kind of acting the Academy likes to reward. Although Geoffrey Rush could pull out an upset.

Best Actress in a Supporting Role
Many people say this is Melissa Leo's award to lose.  However, my money is on Hailee Steinfeld, for several reasons: 1) voters that liked The Fighter will likely split their votes between Leo and Amy Adams, essentially keeping both from winning, 2) Melissa Leo's self-congratulatory "For Your Consideration..." ads will leave a bad taste in most voters mouths.

Best Original Screenplay
Christopher Nolan's Inception is easily the most original and thoughtful movie I've seen in a long time.

Best Adapted Screenplay
No one, and I mean no one, can compete with Aaron Sorkin's outstanding dialogue and sharp wit in his screenplay for The Social Network.

Best Animated Movie
Anyone who bets against Pixar's Toy Story 3 is a nutjob.

Oscar Countdown 2011

The countdown has begun: the 83rd Academy Awards are one week away!

For those that follow my blog, you know that Oscar Night is the single biggest night of the year for me.  And, just like last year, I am so excited to blog about my predictions, the fashion, the winners, and about the show in general.  I'm so excited! So, stay tuned this coming week for my Oscar Week blog posts.

To tide you over, enjoy this Modern Family ad from last year's Oscars. They are all so funny, but I think Sofia Vergara takes home the gold in this one:

Irrational Fear

Why do I let what other people think take such a hold over my life?

I have always had an irrational fear of rejection and disappointing people, that I rarely am honest with anybody. Lest I say something that will tarnish the relationship I have with that person. It's the exact reason I never came out to anyone for so long (thank god that my mother had the chutzpah to ask me if I was gay).

The worst is when I find something that I enjoy (a movie, a book, a singer, etc.). It doesn't matter how many people agree with my thoughts, it only takes that one person to say "I hate that thing that you really like." To me, that is akin to them saying, "I think you are stupid for liking that."

Blargh. I know it's all quite ridiculous. I shouldn't let what other people think get me down, but it just happens. I have no control over it.

Time Machine

All I need is a time machine
A one-way track cause
I'm taking it back, taking it back

All I want is a DeLorean
If I could go just like that
I'll be taking it back, taking it back

Welcome to 2011

Happy 2011!

Can you believe that we've been in the new millennium for over eleven years now? Wow. I remember celebrating New Year's in 2000 and thinking that it was such an amazing thing to get to experience ringing in not only a new year, but a new millennium.

As with all New Year's, comes with it a brand new set of resolutions and goals.

My Goals for 2011:

- Graduate from Brigham Young University in April

- Lose 15-20 lbs. before graduation

- Find a job

- Find someplace to move to after I graduate

- Create a budget and become more financially independent

- Try not to be so cynical

- Find someone special to be my New Year's kiss in 2012