Which brings me to another point. Should I tell my parents that I am gay while I am home? I know my family's stance on homosexuality, which is the same as most highly conservative Mormon families. I have debated telling them for about a year now, but still have not had the guts to go through with it. I keep telling myself that I will cross that bridge when I come to it, but I have noticed that I have purposefully been avoiding that bridge for a very long time. I mean, it may not even come as a surprise to them (I have shown gay traits ever since I was six, when I would choreograph dance routines to Céline Dion songs). My parents even caught me looking at gay porn in high school. I told them that I was over it when I came out to BYU and then went on my mission. But all my life, I have been taught by my parents that being gay is a sin and that gays will go to hell. Maybe this was their way of discouraging my gay traits. Thanks for the lifetime of support, mom and dad!
So, anyway, I could tell them the truth and and be done with it, but endure the shame of my family (especially my younger brother, who will undoubtedly use my homosexuality against me) forever. Or, I could allow my family to remain blissfully unaware of my actual orientation, but at the same time, not allowing me to be myself. I would be lying to everyone, including myself.