Confession

During my shift yesterday, a co-worker asked me to tell her something about myself that not a lot of people know. I scrambled to find a suitable answer that would satisfy her question. Of course, the #1 secret about me that nobody knows is that I am gay. I am still not ready to come out to anybody just yet, especially someone I see every other day. What if she freaks out and doesn't want to be my friend anymore? What if she goes and tells everybody else at work? So I quickly tried to think of something. I think I took longer than she expected, so she probably figured that I was covering up a bigger secret.

I finally told her that not only have I never had any type of long-term relationship, never had a girlfriend in high school (which is true), but I also have never been kissed (also true!). Yes, I went to prom and homecoming, but we went as friends. I even took the same girl to both Junior and Senior Prom. So my co-worker began asking why I've never dated anyone, and I gave her some bullshit answer about being afraid of commitment, being let down, etc.

So, yeah, I have never known what it feels like to have a girlfriend/boyfriend, or even a kiss. It's not that I am waiting to do it with my one true love or over an altar, it's just that I've never been interested in girls and coming from the deep south and a Mormon family, being homosexual is not something that people just accept.

My confession is this: I am gay, through and through. I've never had any type of long-term relationship, but I want to. And I have yet to have my first kiss.